So a friend was telling me tonight about how, "You need to really know yourself to be in a relationship and how you need to be in a relationship to really know yourself." I didn't like hearing this. I don't seem to really know who I am and I can't seem to take even a small step into a relationship. Tonight I feel like throwing my arms up and shouting, "Who the heck am I?"
I can tell you a few things I'm good at: making soup, keeping secrets, lindy hop, changing my mind, writing with my feet, traveling alone, peace-making, eating candy, scootering, giving mean looks.
I can tell you some things I stink at: doing my taxes, returning phone calls, arriving on time, remembering birthdays, riding on boats, standing in line, following recipes, obeying the speed limit, knitting, ice skating, sitting still, doing puzzles, balancing my checkbook, talking about politics, waking up.
I can give you a list of the countries I've seen. I know my favorite spots in town, my favorite foods, weather, music, movies... I know a little about where I've come from and the joys and sorrows of my life. Sometimes I know what I want.
Today I want to keep growing and learning, even though it's slow work and it often hurts.
Newlywed Smiths - August 2008
3 comments:
i'm continually learning about who i am and how i work. it's a big job, but i am seeing progress. :)
I laughed out loud when I read you are good at giving mean looks. But I do think you are good at talking politics. You're probably just not good at talking politics with someone who disagrees with you ;)
Mikey
well, she is the ice princess. ;)
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